Grief

My Love

My love another year gone byAnother walk, another cryAnother first, corner turnedAnother candle flicks and burns The tears still come just not as oftenThe pain in my heart yields and softensMy breath returns with every dayI slowly learn to live this way My soulmate gone, half is missingBut I can’t spend year on year just …

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Marbles Legacy

Colours blue and red and whiteHeart as noble as a knightPeaceful, sassy, full of joyHappy loving fishy boy My value wasn’t less than anotherjust simply because you can go buy my brotherI’m not replaceable like a potMy soul was unique, a one only lot Please don’t speak words like ‘just a fish’Make this my one …

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Dust

Another year has turned to dustSoldier on I know I mustThe bitter sting not quite so searingNot quite so overwhelming feelings But with this, my heart feels sadAre memories fading of times we hadWhy doesn’t my heartache as once beforeDo I not miss you any more? I do, of course, miss you just as muchEvery …

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My Boy

An entire year without my boyWithout his spark, without his joyNo massive grin, no flailing feetNo desperation to come and greet The world keeps turning, life goes onWe all miss the light that he brightly shoneThe stability his energy gaveHe knew how to make the girls behave Cheeky grin and happy soulMoments with him were …

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The Hollow

Hollow dark and oh so grimTwisting, turning, living thingExpanding, filling space and timeThis gaping hole, this grief of mine Opens wide and sucks things inCrushes deftly, makes me spinClaws and maims and gouges outBinds, releases, strong and stout It waits, bides time and rushes inThis overwhelming, dangerous thingIt comes from nowhere, pulls me to itMoving …

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She Lives On

In scents of Olay, nail lacquer entferner, roasting beef and summer sun.Pictures of feet up, laid back, rays bronzing legs and peace firmly etched in on her faceIn summer ice creams slurped with a wry smile and a cheeky game of cardsSoft hands, long fingers and kindness, never ageing, smiles while I paint her nails …

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My Best Boy

I can’t do this but I know I mustI have your love, I’ve earned your trustThe time is near to say goodbye So to draw my inner strength I try My heart is broken, my soul destroyedI can’t see a future living with this voidYou’re my better half, my life, my joyYou’re my special lad and …

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Legacy

Mothers day its plain to seeThe hardest one ever for meNo card to buy, no shopping doneNo present for my beautiful mum I thank the lord from deapest depths of my heartThat from my memories I’ve not had to partEach one is a blessing and a curseThey bring both smiles and wounds to nurse There …

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I can see

I can see my mum, She’s dancing around my headVisions of her smiling faceTucking me into bed I can see my mumA hand of cards she holdsTrying not to disappoint my girlHer winning hand she folds I can see my mumStirring her warming potMaking her special gravy dish‘be careful the dish is hot’ I can …

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My Dearest

My dear old mum was feistyNever a truer words been said“Never let others tell youWhat sitting in your head” My dear old mum was kindHonest and true right through and through“treat others with love and careand they will do the same thing too” My dear old mum was stubbornand always knew just what to do“swear …

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Time

Time stands still for no oneNever a truer words been saidTonight I sit alone and cryKnowing no one is in her bed My dear kind mum I miss herThough I hear her words run through my headI wish I could hold or kiss herI hold each memory dear instead I cant believe that weeks have …

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Today

Today I lost my dearest mumToday the world stood stillToday the sound of silence rangIn the field I felt the chill Today I lost my dearest mumToday my tears did flowToday my heart did shatterPlease mum, no really, oh dont go… Today I curl and hide myselfHow does the world go on?Today just shouldnt happenI …

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